Change

Change has always been difficult for me. For those of you who have read Who Moved My Cheese, I can relate very well to Hem and Haw! It's not that I don't enjoy diversity and new experiences. I love travel and exploring new cultures and discovering parts of this amazing world we live in. I love meeting new people. I love to be spontaneous and just do something because it sounds fun. Just like my previous post about my golf trip. I woke up one morning to a text message from my good friend in Denver inviting me to fly out for his member/guest tournament. It took me all of 10 seconds to respond and tell him "I'm in"!!! Then I made the arrangements with my kids so I could make it happen.
But there are certain areas of my life that are just too comfortable and I seem to resist change with all my might. Like my current career situation. I have been working with the same small family business for almost 20 years www.empoweringpeople.com. It has provided well for my family throughout the years and has given me the opportunity to work with my mom. But for the past 5 years I have realized that the business cycle is on the down slope. But I just can't seem to get my ass in gear to start wandering the maze of life looking for new cheese. Sure I'll take a peek around the corner and look a little. But I've never actually been able to let go of my current situation long enough to really explore my options and go through the difficult process of change.
But now I don't have a choice! Like it or not change is coming and it is stressing me out! My coping mechanism is to just ignore it. Put my head in the sand and pretend it isn't really happening. On my best days I feel positive and excited about the possibilities. On my worst days I feel frustrated, lonely and overwhelmed. But one way or another, the kids and I will make it through this change. And looking back I will be grateful for the new opportunities and experiences.